By Bishop Thaddeus Barnum
“I’m fine,” we tend to say a lot.
But what if we’re not – would we know it?
King David knew it. He “kept silent” about his sin against Bathsheba and her husband, Uriah. He buried it inside.
Yet, he knew three things: One, it affected his body (“my bones wasted away”). Two, it affected his soul (“my groaning all day long”). And three, it affected his relationship with the Lord (“your hand was heavy upon me”). Still, he “kept silent” about it.
Is that what we do?
It’s not hard to do. We’re experts in silencing sin in our soul. We pretend it’s not there by avoiding it, denying it, and refusing to think about it. We make light of it by convincing ourselves “It’s no big deal” or, worse, justifying it by saying, “I’m basically a good person. We’ve all messed up at some point in our lives.”
We even – if necessary -- quietly approve the morals of the culture, knowing full well the culture allows what God does not.
It’s a choice to “keep silent.” It’s how we stay in control.
But are we sure we’re in control? Is it possible it is? The prophet Isaiah tells us that holding sin inside for a prolonged period of time harms us (Isa 6:9-10). Our hearts become “calloused” (NIV), our ears “dull”, our eyes “dim” (NASB). We know the severity of it the moment the Lord sends a “Nathan” to us.
Nathan was the prophet who came to King David. He knew what David had done. He forced the sins buried deep in David’s heart to come into the light of God’s presence. How often has that happened to us? Have we welcomed our “Nathan”? Or have we pushed him away and, by so doing, proved to God and to ourselves our heart is hard, our ears deaf, and our eyes blind to the power of sin in our lives?
Why push our “Nathan” away?
Why think “survival mode” is normal? Healthy? Acceptable?
The counsel King David brings has power to heal us: “Don’t be “like a horse or a mule, without understanding…” (Ps 32:9). Do what David did: Stop being silent. Say what David said: “I will confess my transgressions to the Lord”. And get what David got: “and you forgave the iniquity of my sin” (Ps 32:5).
When that happens, we can say, “I’m fine!” and mean it. “Blessed is the one,” King David shouts from experience, “whose transgression is forgiven” (Ps 32:1).
But if we keep silent, we put ourselves in grave danger. Why not take the initiative, before the next Nathan comes barging into our life, and make our confession to Almighty God?
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